Steele In My Heart
Part Seven



    Laura paced the reception area nervously yet again as Mildred watched.  "You're going to wear a hole in the carpet, honey."
    "I just wish they'd get here.  I want them fully settled in before Remington returns from that luncheon."
    "Has he mentioned anything else about not wanting to see Mrs. Morgan?"
    "Not a word since Tony called yesterday.  I'm worried about him, Mildred."
    "But surely, once she's here, he'll change his mind."
    "I don't know.  He's just as likely to turn around and leave if he finds her here."
    Mildred's eyes widened as she looked past Laura.  "We should find out soon."
    Laura turned as Tony held open the door for Remington's aunt.  She went forward.  "Mrs. Morgan," she said.  "I'm Laura Steele.  I'm glad you're here."
    Jessica looked a bit nervous as she looked around.  "Where is Remington?"
    "Still at a luncheon at City Hall," she explained.  "Why don't we go into his office and make ourselves comfortable?"
    "I'll make some tea," Mildred offered, eagerly.
    "I'd really prefer coffee, Mildred," Jessica said very quickly.  "I think we all would-?"
    "By all means," Katherine agreed.  "Coffee sounds quite acceptable."
    "This is Mildred Krebbs," Laura said, introducing the receptionist.

    Tony saw the older woman to a chair as the others followed.  Katherine's eyes scanned the wall of photographs before her.  "I can see Megan in those eyes.  The eyes of a dreamer."
    "Was she a dreamer?" Laura asked.
    "Oh, yes.  I was the realist.  Megan always believed that things would be perfect, that everyone was inherently good."
    "The eternal optimist?"  Laura questioned.
    "Precisely, Mrs. Steele."
    "Call me Laura."
    Katherine smiled at her.  "Laura, then.  When do you expect- Remington to return?"
    "I'm not certain.  Fred- the agency chauffer- is supposed to call and warn us- "
    The room fell silent upon Laura's words, as she winced at the poor choice.  "I tried to tell Jessica and Antony that he wouldn't want to see me.  Not that I can blame him.  The last time he did, he was eleven years old.  He'd been with me for most of year when it was decided that he would be better taken care of by a distant cousin and her husband who lived in London.  I was determined not to let them know how much it hurt me to let him go.  So I put on the act of my life, said I was tired of having the boy around, bored with playing mum, and that he was more trouble than he was worth.  I thought he was still in his room, packing his one small case with his few belongings.  When I finished my- performance, I realized that he had heard every word.  Every damning word.  Those eyes - for a moment, I almost took it all back.  But I couldn't.  Every day he was with me, was one more day that I was tempted to tell him the truth."
    Laura placed a hand on hers.  "You really cared about him, didn't you?"
    "I've never stopped, Laura.  He was Daniel's son- and Megan's.  Just before he was born, she asked me to take care of him for her, until Daniel was able to.  I never had any children of my own.  I suppose I always thought of him as my own."
    The telephone rang, and Mildred jumped to answer.  "Remington Steele- Fred-What?"  She looked at Laura with panic stricken eyes.  "But- All right." She hung up.  "Mr. Steele's on his way up stairs -"
    "Anyone here?"  Steele's voice asked as he entered the outer office.
    Laura went into action. "Jessica, Tony, take Mrs. Morgan into my office.  Mildred, the coffee cups-" she opened the door just as her husband put a hand on the knob.  "Hello, darling.  You're back early."
    "I left right after the meal, actually.  It was so boring- are Jessica and Antony back?"
    "No," Mildred came out of the coffee room, giving Laura a quick "all clear".
    "Mr. Steele.  I didn't hear you come in.  I just made some coffee-"
    "Thank you, but I'm about coffeed out, actually-" he went into his office, Laura right behind.  "I'm beginning to grow a bit weary of attending these luncheons and dinners," he said, stopping as he loosened his tie.  "Has someone else been here?"
    "Why do you ask?"  Laura wanted to know.
    "Don't you smell it?  The scent of lilacs?"
    "Lilacs?"
    "I've always associated that scent with a - woman I stayed with when I was ten or eleven.  A former stage actress who lived in Dublin.  We spent part of every day at the movies.  I rather liked it- thought she did as well."
    "She didn't?"  Laura asked.
    "Not according to what she told the cousin who came to take me to London to live.  According to her, she'd been looking for a reason to get shed of me - that she was bored."
    Laura put her hand on his arm.  "It hurt you a lot, didn't it?"
    "Well-"  That crooked, little boy smile drew Laura to slide her arms around him.
    "Did you ever see her again?"
    "No.  I never wanted to.  I stayed with my cousin's family for barely three weeks before I ran away."
    "Did you ever consider that perhaps she had a reason for what she did?  That she thought someone else could give you a better life than she could- and the denials were only a cover for her own feelings of loss?"
    "You might be right, Laura, but it doesn't matter now -"
    "Doesn't it, Danny?"
    Laura felt every muscle in Steele's body tense as he heard that voice.  He slowly turned to face the woman he hadn't seen in over twenty years.  If the changes in her appearance rattled him at all, there was no evidence of it in the frozen gaze of those blue eyes.  "Kitty - or should I call you Mrs. Morgan?"
    "Whatever you prefer, Danny," she said, obviously in pain herself, but unwilling again to reveal it.
    "My name is not- Danny."
    "It was the name your mother put on your birth certificate.  Harrison Daniel," she told him softly.
    "I've seen my birth certificate.  The name isn't readable- it could be anything."
    "Father tried to change that record," she told him. "When Megan began to talk about wanting me to take care of her baby, I realized that she wasn't going to make it.  So I called our parents.  Father came-and when Megan died seconds after you were born, they asked about a name.  I told them Harrison Daniel O'Hara.  But Father declared that there should be no tangible reminders of Daniel Chalmers- and he refused to even consider my taking care of you.  He told the authorities to find a foster home until he could make other arrangements.  I wrote to Daniel, about Megan's death, about - his son-"  there were tears in her eyes.
    "You could have gone to court," Steele suggested, but Laura could see that the ice was beginning to thaw.
    Katherine shook her head.  "A second rate actress with a police record?  I stood no chance of winning a court battle.  I stayed as long as I could, kept in on your whereabouts, but I was offered a job in London and decided to take it.  When Daniel was released, I went back with him, tried to convince Father to tell us where you were.  He refused to even speak to Daniel, threatened to go the police if Daniel didn't stay away.  We tried on our own, but the family was one step ahead of us, always moving you to a new cousin or friend.  Finally, I made Daniel go back to London.  Told him to get on with his life.  He disappeared into pubs in Whitehall, and told me to leave him alone.  I didn't see or hear from him again for almost ten years."
    When Steele was silent, Laura asked, "How did you overcome your father's objection to your taking care of- Danny?"
    "He died six months before the cousins that were keeping Danny decided to emigrate to Australia.  So I convinced my mother to let him come and live with me in Dublin- just until someone else agreed to take him in.  She agreed, on the condition that I promise not to tell him anything about Megan- and not to contact Daniel."
    "And you agreed to that?"  Steele asked.
    "I was desparate," she insisted.  "I wanted to keep my promise to Megan in some small way.  I took a small cottage near the theatre district - one of the movie houses was devoted to classic American movies, and I enjoyed watching them.  I doubted that a ten year old boy would share my enthusiasm, however.  I fully expected him to be a handful- angry, resentful.  The truth was a surprise."
    Steele turned away, going to stare silently out of the window.  Curious, Laura asked, "What was he like?"
    Katherine smiled at the memory.  "Quiet.  Too quiet. He spoke only when spoken to- I shuddered to think about what could have broken his spirit and so damaged his self confidence.  I started taking him to the movies with me- and I began to notice a change.  His favorite was anything with Humphrey Bogart, but he enjoyed them all.  No matter how many times he'd seen a picture, he would want to see it again."
    "You mentioned a change?"
    "That charm began to show through.  And his eyes-his eyes started to glow.  The same glow his mother's had had.  It took a year for me to gain his trust.  We talked about so many things- even about his desire to find his parents, to have a place to call home.  I was considering breaking my promise and telling him the truth when my mother's cousin and her husband arrived on my doorstep to take Danny to London."  Katherine stole a glance at the taunt jawline of the man behind Laura.  "Danny didn't want to go, bless him.  Nor did I want him to.  But I knew I had no legal recourse, and I would be damned before I let those people know how much it hurt me to give him up again.  So I sent him to his room to pack.  The cousin's gloating face made me lose my temper, and I- I told them I was glad they had come to take him off of my hands.  That I was bored, tired of being tied down by the kid.  I told them he was nothing but trouble, never doing what he was told, a poor student, always threatening to run away.  It was all lies," Katherine admitted softly, greatfully accepting the tissue that Jessica held out.  "I couldn't have wished for a more obediant, brighter child.  I suppose I hoped they would change their minds.  That's when I heard him say he was ready to go.  His voice- it was so different.  And those eyes- like blue ice.  He left that house and never once looked back.  I cried for two days," she finished quietly.
    "I never once saw you shed any tears," Remington said at last.  "In all the time I was with you.  You were too strong, I always thought."
    "Perhaps.  But not when it came to you.  I DID cry," she said.  "And then I went to London.  Since you were gone, I was free to find Daniel and tell him where you were.  I thought I could make it up to you, somehow.  But it took me six months to track him down.  He agreed to come with me - but you had already run away a week earlier, and the cousin had written you off as a lost cause.  Apparently you became quite the rebel."
    Steele shrugged dismissively.  "They'd only wanted me for the free labour in their print shop.  I'd go on a delivery and detour by a movie house. I'd sneak out at night and began to run with a rather rough crowd.  The police brought me home more than once for violating curfew.  Finally, one day, I took the money they owed me for my work from the till and just left.  I decided that I didn't need anyone to take care of me."  He felt Laura slip an arm around him.  Until I met you, his eyes told her.
    "Daniel and I searched everywhere for you, but you were nowhere to be found.  Mother became ill and I had to return to Ireland, and Daniel went on about his business, but always with an eye out for the boy whose photograph I'd shown him.  Do you remember that photo, Danny?"
    "The photographer in the park," he said.  "We'd gone there after watching 'The Maltese Falcon" for the tenth time."
    "Yes."
    "So Daniel knew who I was from the beginning?"
    "Not immediately.  At first, you were only a cheeky young pickpocket who lifted his waller.  It was only after he hunted you down and got a good look at you that he realized who you were."  She looked at him.  "He wanted to tell you, but he sensed the anger that you had built up and was afraid of losing you comepletely.  So he made you his protoge, and taught you everything he could.  He contacted me, asked me to come and make amends.  I didn't."
    "Why not?"  Steele asked.
    "There were several reasons.  I knew you'd never agree to listen to me, and to explain who I was would mean revealing Daniel's secret, and he wasn't ready to do that.   I stayed away until after you went out on your own when you were- what?  Sixteen?"
    He nodded at the memory.  "Almost seventeen, actually.  I felt I'd learned as much as I could from Daniel, and needed to continue my lessons elsewhere."
    "He understood that.  I met him in London and agreed to help him with another confidence scheme.  He was so certain it would work.  But it didn't.  Daniel managed to get away, but the authorities questioned me about how well I knew the man.  I said not at all, but the barrister who was invovled in the investigation kept calling, taking me to dinner."
    "Jason Morgan," Laura guessed.
    "Yes.  Jason knew about my past association with someone matching Daniel's description, and he didn't seem to mind.  I saw Daniel one time before I agreed to marry Jason.  He didn't even try to talk me out of it, simply said that I deserved to be loved and taken care of.  I saw him infrequently until after Jason's death.  He found me in the cottage, and tried to convince me to go back into that life.  I refused, but told him he was welcome to visit me whenever he wished."
    "Did he?"
    She smiled.  "Often enough that I knew that my Danny was now known as Remington Steele.  He told me about how you thought the Earl of Claridge might be your father.  I was furious that he hadn't taken the opportunity to tell you the truth then."
    "When did you last see him?"  Steele wanted to know.
    "Just after the Earl's death.  He acted so strangely and his goodbye sounded so- final, that I refused to let him leave until he told me what was wrong."
    "He told you he was ill, then?"
    "Very ill," she said gravely.  "A combination of working in the coal mines as a boy and a minor heart problem.  Both were controlled with medication for several years, but finally Daniel's way of life, the stress, always living on the edge, it caught up with him."
    Steele shook his head.  "I don't recall ever seeing him take anything stronger than an aspirin-- but I do recall now asking about a spell of terrible sounding coughing.  He passed it off as a cold that he couldn't quite get rid of, told me not to worry."
    "That was Daniel," Katherine told him.
    Laura recalled that when Daniel had met the Earl of Claridge, he'd pretended to have a 'touch of the black lung'.  "He never told you about his child hood, Remington?"
    "Not a word.  I never even knew where he'd been born."
    Katherine said the name of a small town in Wales.  "I wouldn't have known but for an actor I worked with in the early days.  He'd grown up with Daniel. They were cousins. Daniel came by to see him one evening, and we met.  Harry - his friend- told me about how they'd worked the mindes until they were fourteen, then cut and run away.  Harry convinced Daniel to use me in one of their schemes.  The three of us became inseperable.  Until one night Harry played cards with the wrong man and got knifed when he was caught cheating.  Daniel was devastated, but he insisted on going ahead with the game we were planning.  Of course, it didn't work, we both barely escaped the police.  I invited him to stay with me in Dublin until things cooled down a bit.  He'd only been there a few days when Megan came for a visit.  One look at Megan, and Daniel was hopelessly lost.  I could see how much he loved her by the look in his eyes.  I truly believe he might have changed, if the police hadn't traced us down.  They questioned me, threatened to take me to jail if I didn't give them Daniel.  I was willing to go, but Daniel came into the room and gave himself up.  He was sentanced to two years for his crime.  Megan went back home, already talking about how when Daniel was free, they were going to be married.  She wrote to him almost every day, and since our parents disapproved, he sent the replies to my address.  About two months after Daniel's arrest, Megan suddenly appeared on my doorstep, case in hand, saying that Father had thrown her out.  She wouldn't tell me why, so I went to see him myself.  He said that Megan was going to have Daniel's child, and he wanted no part of it.  There was more, but I was so used to his tirades about how disappointed he was in me that I didn't listen to it.  Megan had already written Daniel about the baby, and she began making all sorts of plans.  She was going to have the baby, which she was certain would be a boy, and then go to work until Daniel was free and could marry her.  She said Daniel would surely find a real job, and they would live happily ever after."  Her eyes were misty.  "I think they would have.  Daniel was a changed man after he met Megan.  If she had lived- But she didn't.  And everyone suffered.  Daniel, me.  You, most of all."  She rose slowly to her feet.  "If you want me to leave, all you have to do is say that word.  I'll return to London and never bother you again."
    Steele met her look squarely, then looked away again.  "I have to think," he said, and left the office before Laura could say a word.
    "He'll be back," she told Katherine.  "He's confused.  That was a lot of information for him to take in."
    "He did the same thing  after Daniel told him the he was really Mr. Steele's father," Mildred told her.
    "I've no doubt that Daniel's confession disturbed him deeply," Katherine commented.
    Jessica tried unsucessfully to hide her yawn.  "Excuse me.  Jet lag.  I think I'll go home and get some rest."
    "I'll drive you over-" he offered, getting ready to duck if she took a swing at him.
    "Very well, Antony," she responded less coolly than he had anticipated.
    "Oh, Tony, I have some news about your application for an investigator's liscense."
    "What now?"  he wondered.
    "They've agreed to count your time as a government agent - if you stay with the agency for six months to learn proper procedure."
    "Six months, eh?"  He grinned.  "Well, if Steele can handle it, so can I."
    Jessica came over to Katherine, taking the woman's hands in hers.  "I'll see you later, Mrs. Morgan."
    "I'll look forward to it, Jessica.  And you as well, Antony."
    "Tomorrow, Laura."
    Laura let them go, then turned to Mildred.  "Have Fred bring the limo around, Mildred.  Mrs. Morgan and I are going to the apartment."


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